Wet and Rainy

When my body is healed, and I wake up to a day like today, wet and rainy, I will always think of the friends and people that I know who live with chronic pain. I woke up today barely able to move. My whole body hurts so bad. The pain in my back has spread and it is not fun. They say that pain can be worsened when the weather is like this. I am not sure why and maybe it is unrelated, but my pain is very intense today. This experience has made me have a whole new awareness and empathy for others. I am getting so tired from carrying this. I am so weak and I am so thankful for my God who is strong when I am weak. I am thankful for this humbling experience of seeing that I really, REALLY, NEED Him. I will never take good health for granted again. Oh man, and aging has a whole new fear to it!! So many of my doctors appointments and physical therapy, etc., is filled with waiting rooms full of elderly people! Oh my goodness, our frail bodies really do deteriorate over time. So not fun. I can't wait to live in paradise with Jesus and whole, healthy bodies!! Heaven has a whole other appeal to me now as well!
I think about all the people I know who are suffering. There are so many. Cancer, death, pain. It's all around me. We so desperately need our savior Jesus who is the only one who can come close to bringing peace and rest to those aching parts of our bodies and souls. Jesus, we need you. We need you desperately.
Church has a whole new look to me as well. I feel as though my role as a pastor's wife isn't to appear as though I have it all together, because I most certainly don't. However, my role is to love on all these people who are hurting and say out loud and with my life, I know about my Jesus, I can tell you about him because He is very real to me and I am seeking to know him more and more. However, nothing I say or do can compare to what HE can do for you. HE is the only one who can reach the depths of our souls. He is the only one who can give us the will and strength to survive things like car accidents, cancer, and heartache. Only Jesus. Only Jesus. Not your friends, not your spouse, not your pastor, or your gadgets. Only Jesus. Only Jesus.
I love Him and I am asking Him to get me through another day of having a really jacked up body! ;)