Claim It

I had a really bad day last Tuesday. It was long... filled with preschool graduation, two conflicting doctors appointments (yes, doctors have conflicting opinions, something I didn't know until recently), seeing my mother-in law off, driving to Bulverde and back for our Connection group, and the usual tending to three small children.  Also dealing with physical pain in my body and in my heart that drains me.

On my drive home from Bulverde, I basically demanded to God that He MUST do something. I told Him that I cannot and do not want to go on living like this anymore. I basically threw a huge fit, like my kids do sometimes, and told God that He really needed to intervene because He is currently asking way too much of me.

Then it was over, and I went to bed feeling like I didn't have even one ounce of energy left in me.

Wednesday I woke up and felt like I was hung over from a long night. It was like I didn't even recognize the person who I was when my head hit the pillow the night before.

God didn't answer my prayer by healing my body, which is what I really would like for Him to do. But He did answer my prayer.

I have been having really, really odd dreams for a while now. For those of you who have ever been pregnant, that's what they have been like. Very real and vivid, but so weird and random.

Tonight was different. God normally speaks to me through His word and through the small, still voice of the Holy Spirit. He also speaks to me through other people. I wholeheartedly believe that no matter how He chooses to speak to me, it always can be confirmed by His written word. If it contradicts His written word, then I don't believe it is from Him.

With all of that said, tonight God spoke to me through a dream. He answered my cries of desperation with a dream.

I won't go into all the details of it, but He basically reminded me of a few small adjustments that I need to make to my life in order to live with a purpose and to not feel so defeated. I have been letting life have its way with me more than I have been actively fighting against passivity.

Tomorrow I am going to go to Wal-Mart and buy a kitchen timer. I am going to set some small goals for the boys and I to accomplish throughout our days that will hopefully help us start moving in the direction of victory in our lives. We need structure. And we need to feel like we are accomplishing things. No matter how small we have to start. Some of the things I want to set the timer for are 5 minutes of quiet time, five minutes of clean-up time, five minutes of exercise, and slowly we will add to the five minutes.

I am also going to somehow tape a written reminder in the middle of our dining room table for us to pray together everyday for two specific things. 1. The Crossing 2. Healing

No, these aren't the only things we pray for, but they are both vital to us right now. So we are going to keep bringing them to the throne of God.

I have a few other things that I believe God was showing me in my dream and I wrote them down to remember. Thank you so much God for answering my prayer. It wasn't exactly what I had in mind;), but You most definitely do know better than me!

If you are experiencing discouragement or frustration in your life right now, I hope and pray that you will cry out to God. He listens, I promise. Will you listen for Him??

Love,

Mindy