In case you are wondering...

In case you are wondering about the pain I am referring to, here is a recap of what has been going on with my body the last few months...

November 19, the day our little princess was born. A gift from the Lord that I am so thankful for...I felt really sick after delivery and had a lot of bleeding.

I was given a lot of drugs to stop the bleeding.

The next several days I continued to experience a lot of cramping. I continued to take medication to help tolerate the pain associated with the cramping.

December 5th, I began to experience a high grade fever along with the pain. I went to the ER and was sent home with Tamiflu and antibiotics.

December 22, I started hemorrhaging while I was at home with the kids. It was horrible, a scene from a movie. Dylan brought me my phone, said, "wow mom, you are bleeding a lot!" Then he went back to playing wii and barely looked up to say bye to me as I was rushed to the hospital! Thankfully it wasn't traumatic for him! Sarah laid on the floor screaming and Drew clogged up the toilet while it was all happening! Another poop incident:) Pretty funny! Robin Lees took me to the hospital and I gave her my last will and testament on the drive. Erin Seals nursed Sarah for me(amazing!), and Kelly Raglow took care of the boys! Those two amazing women also cleaned up the blood off of my bathroom floor! Forever grateful. I was really worried about having to come home to that mess!

Anyways, I made it to the hospital and had an emergency D&C because there was remaining placenta in my uterus! No wonder I was cramping! I was in labor for 4 1/2 weeks! It was a horrible night but God revealed Himself to us in so many ways. He was so good to us. He spared my life. I don't ever want to forget that. I don't ever want to lose the feeling of being so grateful that I get to live. I get to be a mom and wife. Thank you Lord.

Anyways, I noticed before I got put on heavier drugs that made me really drunk that my back was hurting. I saw Travis Davenport on a commercial and I told Jason to tell him that he was one of the last faces I saw before I died! Funny stuff! I hemorrhaged for about 12 hours and had a blood transfusion of 3 units. Now that's a really weird thing to wake up to! I wondered whose blood was fusing with mine. I also sort of wish I would have had a hysterectomy because I have had numerous women tell me it was the best thing they ever did! Oh well.

December 23, I was released from the hospital and took methergine for 10 days to correct uterine atony. This also was accompanied by severe cramping. Awesome! Sarah and I cuddled in bed only moving to go to the couch! We watched a ton of movies. I think I watched all of the Griswold movies. I had never seen them! They are really funny! I also watched things like Mannequin. I wish Ferris Buehlers Day Off would have been on. That is such a good "lay on the couch feeling sick movie!" Oh yeah, and Christmas was somewhere in there...

December 28, Two trips to Dr's office. More bleeding, cramping, drugs.

December 30, Dr's appt. Another ultrasound was performed and my uterus had closed significantly.

January 5, More bleeding.

Current, So my uterus appears to be fixed. My back, not so much. I am still in a tremendous amount of pain. I have had numerous ultrasounds, Dr. visits, chiropractor visits, physical therapy visits, an MRI, prescriptions for steroids, muscle relaxors, and Vicodin. I still have many unanswered questions as to the correct treatment for the pain I am experiencing. My next course of action is to visit a Pain Management Specialist. Hopefully that will be next week. I think I will probably get an injection into my SI joint. It's weird when you are looking forward to having a needle injected into your joint. They have to use an x-ray for guidance. My physical therapist used curse words when she described to me how bad it hurts. I don't care. I will do anything if it will help.

Please pray for us! I have experienced a tremendous amount of anger because of this. But I think God has brought me through that part. I am accepting it now although I am not going to stop trying to get better. My husband is the greatest man in the whole wide world. He has served me in more ways that I can count. I love him. He truly, truly is amazing.

My boys have been real troopers. They are the sweetest things ever. If you spend time with them, and they are bouncing off the walls, be patient with them, their momma is going through some things:) Not to mention the transition of a newborn! I love their hearts. We are blessed with very good boys and I pray that they will be better people because of this struggle. Diane Benac says they will.

Sarah, well, she most definitely IS a princess. Goodness, I love her chubby soft skin. It is so kissable and smells so yummy! We cuddle a lot. She too, has been a real trooper. I am excited about watching her wrap Jason around her finger tighter and tighter over the years!