Random

Writing has been very therapeutic for me the past couple of days. Some in private, and some not so private. I think writing might help me on this road, whether my pain goes away next week when I meet with a pain specialist, or if it doesn't. Regardless.
Somehow for the past three months, I have tricked my self into believing that this pain I am experiencing and my relationship with the Lord are separate. I have been telling myself that God and I are good. I am not mad at Him, questioning Him, or placing any blame on Him. Which is true. Very true. However, I also haven't been tapping into His grace to get me through this pain. I am challenging myself to start doing that now.
Instead of tapping into His grace, I have allowed my mind to go to very dark, "what if" places. No more of that. His grace is sufficient.

So the boys...they are outside riding their bikes right now...




Aren't they cute? Jason is outside organizing the garage.



He is handsome. He doesn't normally dress this nice to do chores around the house, He is only dressed like that because we had a fun brunch with a friend today at Magues. I am in my pajama's, I have been since we got home.

Sarah is watching the boys play.





That's my minivan in the background. I love it. And I love it that some people think it is so dorky;) I think that storm door could use some Windex. Oh well. Off to sit outside with the boys...