In Case You are Wondering Part Two

We had an appointment with the pain specialist again today. Here are some of the logistics of it because there are so many of you that I want to call, but I am too tired to do it, so here it is...
The results of my CT showed a couple of things.
1. I have a very small fibroid in my uterus. However, it is so small that the doc does not believe it is causing the pain.She is going to get in touch with my OB about it.
2. My liver has a small mass on it. She told me not to get freaked out because of the terminology but that just the only way to explain it. It could be nothing, in fact lots of people have them but I am getting lab work to investigate.
3. I don't really know what she said bc I am pretty sure my brain has stopped working and I didn't hear much of what she said except for that she was filling me a prescription for lots of pain meds and nerve meds and that it might be a good idea to stop nursing because soon down the road, I may have to start taking other drugs that will be bad for Sarah.
So, I guess if you want to know the logistics, talk to Jason!
Ha, I tried! Ummm....I go back sometime early in May and in the meantime, the doc is going to call the radiologist who did my CT scan, getting records from my OB, and like I said, she ordered labwork.
Oh yeah, and I still do have SI dysfunction which is causing the pain down my legs, but she said it is minor and we may treat it later.
We like this doctor because she is investigating, but we are so tired of this all. Thanks so much for all of your prayers.
The waiting room was an experience like never before and it gave me some perspective. I think I was the best off of all of the people that we saw. Either that, or I was the only one who took meds before going! :) No, seriously, it was sad. There was a young wife in there who had brought her husband and I just sat there watching them and thinking of how much I admired her. And Jason. It must be so hard to have a spouse who is "sick" all of the time. Or who is unable to "carry their load." I used to get really frustrated with Jason when he stayed in bed sick! (Come on wives, you know what I am talking about!! They can be such babies!! but don't tell Jason I said that;))
So I came home and did some house work because I knew if I sat down, I would just cry and feel sorry for myself which is no good. Then I tried to feed Sarah formula a few times and she was screaming her head off, so I caved and nursed her which totally did the trick. Darn it, this is going to be so hard. Ugh.
We are having Marty and Lori over for dinner tonight and I am glad because talking about The Crossing is very exciting and distracting.
Also, a few good friends of mine and I are going to Fredericksburg this weekend which is going to be soo cool!
And maybe Jason will take me on a cruise or something when Sarah is weaned! You think?! Hahaha, a girl can dream!
We went to a church in San Antonio yesterday and the message was so good. He talked specifically to moms about how God gave us the role of being moms, so therefore He believes that we can do it!! He is for us and He will equip us to do it! He also talked about guilt, fear, and manipulation being from satan, so when we have those thoughts, well, we can just send them right back to hell where they came from! God doesn't tell us those things, and with that, we shouldn't parent using guilt, fear, and manipulation either. It was good stuff. I was thankful.
I think this might be the most scattered post ever...goodnight...

Blessed be your name on the road marked with suffering, when there's pain in the offering, blessed be your name...