I need you help. Part two.

Wow. Melissa Sing, thank you so much for your email. You encouraged me spiritually and practically. ( And I already have been bulk cooking on good days! I currently have meatloaf, chicken spaghetti, spaghetti and meatballs, and macaroni and cheese frozen ready to be defrosted on a bad day! And I have some Omaha steaks, chicken breasts, and hamburger patties too! Because we don't eat out near as much, I was able to splurge on good steak!!! Don't ever pay full price for Omaha steaks, they always have specials. You can order from them and have a filet, salad, and potatoes at home that is better than any restaurant AND cheaper! Their steaks are amazing!!! And my husband cooks them perfectly:) Ok, enough on that...) But seriously Melissa, thank you.

Last night I had a dream. I was in a war and their were people dying all around me. People that I love. I woke up this morning hit with the stark reality that we ARE in a war. There is a spiritual battle going on all around us. It is a battle for our souls. Satan wants to kill, steal, and destroy us. Jesus Christ came to live and die for us so that He could save us and restore us to God. The bottom line of this short life, and is is short in the perspective of eternity, is just that. Who will we choose? I am looking forward to spending eternity in heaven with my Lord and saviour. It breaks my heart to think that some of the people I love might not be there with me. That's all that matters. We all are going to die. And it's happening fast. Will I fight the battle with a perspective of eternity, or will I give in to defeat and despair?

I read a quote the other day that said, "the power of sin is in the secret." I had a secret that I think pain sucks, and I don't really care what good things might come of it. The truth is that if you tell a person who is in the midst of suffering that good things will come of it, they might just punch you in the face.

I confessed my secret and I believe God reminded me that this time on earth is so fast compared to eternity, and if my suffering helps anyone in anyway to choose truth, to choose eternity with God, and to choose that when they do die in this battle, it's ok because they will move on to be with Jesus, well, I guess it's worth it then. Because it is a battle, and people are dying all around us. It's heartbreaking. I have vivid pictures sketched into my brain from my dream last now of how awful this war is and how awful it is to watch a loved one die not knowing if you will ever see them again.

6 “I have manifested your name to the people whom you gave me out of the world. Yours they were, and you gave them to me, and they have kept your word. 7 Now they know that everything that you have given me is from you. 8 For I have given them the words that you gave me, and they have received them and have come to know in truth that I came from you; and they have believed that you sent me. 9 I am praying for them. I am not praying for the world but for those whom you have given me, for they are yours. 10 All mine are yours, and yours are mine, and I am glorified in them. 11 And I am no longer in the world, but they are in the world, and I am coming to you. Holy Father, keep them in your name, which you have given me, that they may be one, even as we are one. 12 While I was with them, I kept them in your name, which you have given me. I have guarded them, and not one of them has been lost except the son of destruction, that the Scripture might be fulfilled. 13 But now I am coming to you, and these things I speak in the world, that they may have my joy fulfilled in themselves. 14 I have given them your word, and the world has hated them because they are not of the world, just as I am not of the world. 15 I do not ask that you take them out of the world, but that you keep them from the evil one. [1] 16 They are not of the world, just as I am not of the world. 17 Sanctify them [2] in the truth; your word is truth. 18 As you sent me into the world, so I have sent them into the world. 19 And for their sake I consecrate myself, [3] that they also may be sanctified [4] in truth.

John 17:6-19

This world is not our home, but it is where we are for the time being. Some things suck really bad, but I am choosing again, today, to take heart because I know my God will overcome. And if some things weren't as bad as they are, then it wouldn't really be that big of a deal that God is bigger.

Anyways, thanks for processing with me:)